WHERE WERE YOU?

 
January 17, 2023
Micah 7:7

“But as for me, I watch in hope for the Lord. I wait for God my Savior; my God will hear me.”

January 23, 2023
We have officially moved into our new house! The stars are amazing out here – it is so dark that I can even see them out Lassen’s window while reading him books in bed. Brighton felt close while I was looking at them. So grateful for this place. I pray, Lord, that we have a lot of joy in this house and that we also seek it out.



I read Job 38 and 39 and it blew me away. Questions I had never thought of even asking! Thank you Lord for being bigger than everything and having a plan for every single detail. Thank you for caring about all of the little things!

January 26, 2023
Lassen was so good today and played by himself with his sand for a long time so I could work on the house which was great. We went through Brighton’s things together and Lassen wanted me to wrap him in his brother’s blanket. So sweet. He is so missed…

January 30, 2023
9 months. Brighton has been with Jesus longer than he was physically with me. That is hard to reconcile and process. A rainbow beam was showing up by the sunrise the other day just reminding me that God is good and He understands our pain.

I received an email from Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep (NILMDTS) the other day asking for my permission to use Brighton’s pictures as they were writing an article about Stacey, our photographer! Of course I was honored and said yes. I texted Stacey to let her know how cool it is and she had no idea  they were writing anything –oops! Didn’t know it was a surprise…?? She ended up telling me that she was honored as Photographer of the Year for the entire organization which is incredible. She had given them Brighton’s name as pictures she wanted them to use! Stacey said there will also be a lot of press in the Indy area in the next few weeks as there are only two NILMDTS photographers in the entire Indy area. I just love that God continues to use Brighton’s story to reach others and make an impact. Please use me Lord in the ways you know best!

February 3, 2023
Thank you Lord for answered prayers. For healthy babies after long waits. For rainbows on my bedroom wall reminding me of Your goodness. For giving me grace to begin again, and again.

February 6, 2023
Twice this week, people have told me they were thinking about Brighton and it made me so happy that he hasn’t been forgotten. Thank you Lord for letting people remember and then tell me – it means so much!

Lassen is cracking me up. He has been calling me “Baby Mommy.” He will take my face in his sweet hands and say “Hi Baby Mommy.”

I listened to the Traders Point sermon about joy and it was so good. Exactly what we learned with Brighton. Joy and happiness are different. Joy doesn’t depend on circumstances – it is something with choose.

I found this song by Ghost Ship called "Where Were You" based on the book of Job. It brings me to tears every time I hear it. God is in every single detail and we are so far removed from seeing the whole picture. Yet He still patiently listens to our questions and kneels so that He can answer us...

Where Were You by Ghost Ship
 
I said, "God, I do not understand this world

Everything is dying and broken
Why do I see nothing but suffering?"
God, I'm asking, "Could this be your plan?"
Sin has taken hold of this whole land
Will You not say anything else to me?
He said, "Where were you the day that I measured
Sunk the banks and stretched the line over
All the earth and carved out its cornerstone?
Where were you the day that I spoke and
Told the sun to split the night open
Calmed the morning dawn with its light to show
Who shut in the ocean with stone doors?
Marked the reach of tides on those new shores
Hung the day the waves rose and first broke forth
Have you seen the springs of that great sea
Walked the caverns carved in the black deep
Through the gates of darkness there on its floor
Have you seen the armoury I hold
Snow and hail are stacked up in silos?
For the times of trouble, and war, and strife
Can you raise your voice to the storm cloud
Would the thunder answer and ring out?
Does the lightning ask you where it should strike?
Who has cleft the channels for torrents
Rain to sprout the desert with forest
In the wilderness that my hand has built?
Can you hunt the prey for your lions?
Can you use the chords of Orion?
Is this whole world being beneath your will?"
I spoke of things I did not understand
Things too wonderful for me
Although I had no right to ask
My God knelt and answered me

 

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