THE BLESSER IS FAR GRANDER THAN THE BLESSING

My Boys!

September 24, 2022

I met Kari this morning at a nature park halfway between us and we walked together in remembrance of Brighton and Conner. It was so good to spend time together talking about them, talking about God and how the devil will not win in our lives. Jesus is the ultimate and holds our babies close and holds our hearts close too. It was a beautiful morning and it was so good to be together. Kari had made me this incredible sign with my favorite verses from the song “Jireh” by Maverick City.

October 6, 2022

Today was really good for my soul. We went to the library and then to the nature park with Jess and Neal. We had a picnic and then hiked with the boys. Jess surprised me with a beautiful piece of artwork her friend at church made with lyrics from the Isaiah Song….very emotional.

October 7, 2022
Lassen and Kyle went to breakfast so I am sitting here in the quiet thinking about tomorrow. I have put a lot of effort into honoring Brighton and I hope it shows. I desperately wish this wasn’t the celebration we were having. I desperately wish my baby was with me.

My BIL's sister made me this!!

 God, please let tomorrow be a joyous day and just one step closer to being with You and Brighton. Please let our love for our son and faith in You shine bright and help us all to lean deeper into our relationship with You. Please help me to say the words I have written so that others can hear them well. Just please be very near and present.

I am so glad I decided to decorate today on my own because looking at Brighton’s things was really hard and I cried a lot. But now I am happy to share them with everyone. I have a Willow Tree angel holding a baby tight that broke my heart. I want him with me so badly. Tonight, a huge moon rose over our new house. God was reminding us that He is here. Lassen said “Lassen misses Brighton” when he was getting ready for bed tonight. We talked about how Brighton loves him and that Lass is the best big brother!