LOVE, LUCAS

May 27, 2025

LOVE, LUCAS

November 2, 2022
Tomorrow marks one year since we found out Brighton’s diagnosis. A year ago today, I was just excited about my appointment the next day. A year ago today, I had no idea my world would be shattered the following day into a million pieces. A year ago today, I had no idea how much I would rely on Jesus to carry me. I have been nervous thinking about November 3^rd. I was naïve before that day, and then my eyes were opened to the reality of loss. But at the same time, my heart was opened up to love deeper, and be able to take in every moment with Brighton. I learned to lean on my faith in Jesus and seek out His kindness, goodness, and answers to prayers.

I told Kyle last night that I pray that my testimony allows others to reconsider their hardships, and to be diligent about seeking out of the goodness of Jesus because it changes everything.

Bright, I love you and cannot wait to see you again. You left a big hole in my heart and I know God is going to make something beautiful with those pieces.

November 7, 2022
Yesterday, it was still super windy and Lassen, Kyle and I went out to fly a kite in the field. It was so high up there and I just kept saying, “Hi Bright!”

Kyle and I have been trying to have another baby and unlike my first two pregnancies, it hasn’t happened right away. Which then reminds me, I am not in control, God’s plans are greater than mine, and even if I say I trust Him, I need to show Him that too with my heart and actions. I really need to surrender my plans and truly be joyful and content with what I have and the size of my family.

Lassen is obsessed with Noah and all weekend wanted to hold him (which he did a great job of while sitting on the couch) and I was so proud of him, yet so badly wanted him to have his own little brother in his arms. I often think how losing Brighton has affected me, yet not often do I think about how it has and will affect Lassen. That is more devastating, which is maybe why I shy away from those thoughts.

God, we would love to have another child in our home, but even if You don’t give us one, I still know You are good and You love us!

November 19, 2022
Friday night, Kyle and I went to a Love, Lucas fundraising event. Our friends Tristan and Tyler, who lost their little boy Brooks, went with us and we met Kari and Travis there. It was a fundraising night/trivia/glow party. We had all of the glow things, good pizza, trivia was a blast, and we donated money through the auction. We saw Allison (in charge of Memories to Hold) and Eric (Lucas’ dad) and they both remembered us. Eric talked about the foundation and every family there raised their hands if they had been helped financially by Love, Lucas. Then, they had a table full of candles and they asked each family that had lost a baby to light one. Very powerful but also so sad. Eric said so far this year they have helped over 100 families and given out $70,000 which is crazy to me that the need was that big in central Indiana. Their goal for the evening was $20,000 and together we raised $23,000! That will help around 31 families. Just so thankful for their work and how God has brought a beautiful story out of Lucas’ death. Lord, I pray that You show us ways that we can use Brighton’s story to encourage others to grieve with hope and joy.