YOU CAN GRIEVE WITH HOPE

 

June 1, 2022
Thinking about joy mixed with sorrow. I can’t stop thinking about that passage from Angie Smith’s book – I am so grateful Brighton’s birthday had so much joy. And then I feel guilty because maybe I’m not sad enough or missing him enough or something. I desperately miss him and feel like I can’t even be the best mom for Lassen. God, please give me grace and forgiveness when I mess up. I need You!

There was a rainbow tonight over the field where our house is being built. Love you Bright!

June 4, 2022
5 weeks. Brighton’s urn came today that I designed. It is beautiful but heartbreaking that I even had to order it. It is so small, but it’s the size the funeral home said I would need. Thank you Lord that Brighton is whole and healed with You. This urn will only hold his earthly ashes—his heavenly body is alive and whole and someday I will see him again.

The clouds this morning reminded me of what Brighton’s heartbeat looks like on the sign Kyle got me for Mother’s Day. Except now his heartbeat is to the rhythm of angel’s wings…

Kyle and Lassen went to Menards for some things and ended up picking out our basement vanity…it was the Brighton collection!!! How crazy is that?

God, please show me ways to honor our son and make a difference for someone else.