THE VEIL OF HEAVEN SEEMS THIN

The veil of Heaven seems thin

August 5, 2022
Time is flying! Lassen and I went to Bloomington for a few days which was great. Mom and I went shopping for supplies for Brighton's celebration of life. It's weird to be planning something like this and to be "excited"--I really just want to show our son off so in a very complicated way, I am excited for it. Our photo album from Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep came and it is just so beautiful. Those pictures are such a blessing. 

Pops and Lassen shooting hoops

August 8, 2022
Butterflies keep following us, flitting around while we walk, floating in and out of our new house. Brighton feels close. Heaven is close - just a thin veil. Jesus, please come. We want to be with You and Brighton. 

August 9, 2022
I absolutely love when Lassen says "SO WORTHY" before bed when we are saying our affirmations. Never forget that sweet boy. 

A friend sent me the story of a girl here in town who had a tragic pregnancy complication and she lost her son, Brooks, at 36w4d a few weeks ago. I wrote her a card and gave her my number to reach out if she ever wanted to talk. We have texted a lot today and it has been really good. Grateful for these friendships even in the pain. A club you never want to be a part of, but I've met some of the best people. 

The sunset tonight looked like a royal throne...and there's a cross too:)

Brighton's picture was in our college magazine that shares alumni news. Always somewhat of a shock to see his beautiful little face, but thankful to get to share him with people we went to school with. 

August 10, 2022
I was able to spend some time with Kari today and it was really good. We talked about our boys and I took Brighton’s album to show her. Just really thankful for her. I hope we can always be friends.

Me and Kari!

They got so much done on our house today. The crane was there and they put most of the trusses on. Lassen and I got there just in time to see them put the last one on. So excited! Praying this home is a place where others can come and feel welcome and loved.

A cool story from today…Kyle was talking to the crane operator and he has several children. Kyle had told him about Brighton and this guy said that they were told their daughter had a disability and were encouraged to abort the pregnancy. They chose life for her and the doctors were wrong! She was completely fine. I just love hearing about parents choosing life for their children despite a potential diagnosis!

I feel very fortunate to have such a fantastic group of women in my life. So much support and love and realness and no drama. Women who love me for me and my boys. Thank you Lord! I pray I can be that friend to others too.

August 12, 2022
I woke up to run this morning and found out that my sister-in-law, Kayla, had her baby boy Noah this morning! I am obviously happy for her, but honestly sad for myself. A very weird and guilty feeling. The moon was big and round and I listened to worship music as I ran. I had a beautiful thought that Brighton and I were worshipping at the same time! 

August 14, 2022
God knew Noah was coming Friday and He knew it would be hard for me and Kyle. We felt covered by His goodness and kindness. Tiffany had texted me out of the blue Thursday night to see if she could stop by Friday morning on her way down to Tennessee (we are way out of her way!). Susan (my nurse) texted and called me because I had been on her mind all day. Kacie wrote us a card reminding us how much they love Brighton. People recognized this would be hard. God put that in their hearts to cover us with His love. Thank you Jesus!

Tiff....my bestie since first grade!

We went to a family reunion for my mom’s side and they had made a huge family tree. Brighton was on there and it made me so happy!

Kayla sent me this text today: “Brighton is a reminder for our family of God’s grace and redemption; my desire is that Noah is a reminder of God’s hope and promise.” I love her so much! I am so fortunate to have a sister-in-law who knows just the right things to say and is compassionate and understanding.