GRIEF IS JUST LOVE WITH NO PLACE TO GO

April 18, 2025

GRIEF IS JUST LOVE WITH NO PLACE TO GO

July 5, 2022
Last night, Lassen and I were reading his Bible and there was a picture of baby Jesus in the manger. Lassen said “Baby Brighton” and I explained Brighton was with Jesus. So sweet and special that he knows, even if he doesn’t fully understand. God, I pray that we never forget any detail of our son.

I’m learning that grief is a rollercoaster, a marathon and not a sprint. I will always be in it in some form. I miss Brighton. I often think how I would be doing “xyz” right now if I had a new baby and I know the answer is God would help me, just like he helped me my entire pregnancy and after. Reminds me to never stray from my Father. He knows what is best and what I need. Praying for Kyle, as I know nobody asks him how he is doing except for me.

July 13, 2022
My little Lassie is 28 months today! He is so smart and hilarious and wants to try and do everything himself. “Lassen do it” is frequently heard. We went to the splash pad and pool today which was so fun.

Yesterday, we went to Kari’s house and it was so good. Lassen loved playing with her kids – I would look out and Lassen and her three boys would be sitting on the golf cart together or playing in the rocks. Kari and I had such good conversation and multiple cries about our boys. Just really good to talk to someone who understands 100%. I think Brighton and Conner will be happy seeing their moms be friends. I truly believe we will always be united by our losses.

It was so funny when we were leaving, Lassen waved and said “see ya kids” haha! God, You are so faithful and I just love looking back at Brighton’s story and seeing your goodness all over it. I listened to a sermon today about patience…we can be in a season we don’t want to be in and God will always use that time to teach and refine us, and He will always redeem our pain and wipe away our tears.

July 14, 2022
There was the most perfect, beautiful full moon over the field when I ran this morning. Later on, I was walking with Lassen and we were talking about his brother and what he might be doing. Lassen said “baseball. Red bat.” I said, “Oh, Brighton is playing baseball! How fun!” And then Lassen said, “On the moon.” We hadn’t even talked about how big the moon was this morning either. So all day I thought of little Bright playing baseball on the moon.

Morning moon

A gorgeous sunrise

An amazing sunset

July 16, 2022
Yesterday, Lassen said Brighton was riding his bike. Today, he said he was driving his truck. Miss you sweet boy! 11 weeks closer to being with you.