GIVE THANKS IN EVERYTHING

 

July 19, 2022
I am so grateful for Ann and Kari and Nicole and just being able to walk this journey with them. Nicole (the nurse who was with me when I delivered Brighton) texted me this morning that she was holding Brighton when Allison was doing his foot molds, and Allison told her later that she was rocking my sweet boy. Thank you Lord for giving others the chance to love on our son too. Thank you for giving me a voice to talk about him and all the ways You showed up. Thank you that we can live with eternity in our hearts, but make the most of our days on Earth. Please God, let us know our babies in Heaven.

July 23, 2022
Kari sent me this from a book she is reading (I don’t know what book it is):

“God doesn’t call us to give thanks FOR everything, but to give thanks IN everything. Even in the life shattering loss and disappointment. Because even in the worst circumstances, God is powerfully at work and we can trace God’s mercy. And even in the worst circumstances, if we open our eyes, we will see good that God is doing right in our midst.”

July 29, 2022

Tomorrow will be 13 weeks (3 months) since Brighton went to be with Jesus. Tonight, there was a vertical sundog as the sun was setting. Little Bright letting me know He is good and happy and loved.

I am doing a sprint triathlon tomorrow and convinced a friend to do it too. I told her I would stay with her the whole way. Every month on the 30^th, I have done something hard or big or fun. I did the Murph workout on May 30^th and accepted an offer on our house, closed on our house on June 30^th, and will do a triathlon and then camp on our property with friends on July 30^th. I hope Brighton is proud of me for continuing to live and enjoy life!

July 31, 2022
Psalm 23:1-2 
"The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not want. He makes me lie down in green pastures."

I had this song in my head all day with these verses and then it was in my Upper Room devotional tonight. I have felt a lot of stress and anger and sadness and grief and I just love the idea of lying in a green pasture and Jesus restoring my soul. Ashley painted with words the most beautiful picture of Brighton greeting me when I get to Heaven and showing me around (she mentioned glass waterfalls which sound amazing) and it just comforted me so much. Praying I have sweet dreams of my boys tonight.

This weekend was great and I celebrated 3 months of being Brighton's mama! I did the triathlon and it was a lot of fun. The swim was hard (doesn't help that I never swim ha!) but I made it and then it was smooth sailing from there. Kyle and Lassen were there to cheer us on and it made me so happy. 

When we got home, we went back to our new house and covered the walls in Bible verses and quotes that we love. Always will be special to know how much prayer is covering this home. 

In the afternoon, Suzy and her family came over for a campout at our campsite. It was so much fun. We rode around the farm on the kubota, rode horses, drove lawnmowers, and had a fire and roasted smores. Everybody slept well and it was super peaceful and quiet.