THE MOON IS ALWAYS ROUND, AND GOD IS ALWAYS GOOD

 

May 8, 2022
My first Mother’s Day as a mama of two boys, just not how I expected it to be. I miss my sweet Brighton so much. We went to Brown County today and it was the most perfect, beautiful day. Suzy, Phil, and the boys met us and we all picnicked and then hiked Trail 10 together. This was really special as that was the trail we hiked the day we found out Brighton’s diagnosis. In November, the leaves were changing colors and falling. Today, it was beautiful with the leaves coming out bright green. The sun was shining through the trees and I took some pictures where there is a little Brighton beam bouncing around. He is safe in the arms of Jesus.

Suzy. Just the best friend I could ask for!

So many people reached out to me today because they knew today could be hard. It certainly had moments that were sad, but there was a lot of joy too. I feel guilty (?) in a way because I don’t seem to be grieving as the world grieves, except I think that is just God! When we know where our most beloved ones are, we can grieve with hope. I’ve watched some other families with strong faith grieve heartbreaking situations in ways I couldn’t imagine because they seemed so strong, and now here I am and recognize it is God completely holding me up.

I loved Brighton fiercely while he was with me for 9 months and even though I still can’t believe he is gone, I love him so much more. I want him to see and know his family loves him but also loves this life we have been given…we want to keep living and doing and experiencing the good and hard in this world that God created. I want Lassen to know we can make it through valleys and stand on mountain tops. Jesus will be with us the entire way. I had a long talk with Kyle about it tonight which I am so thankful for.

Kyle surprised me when we got home with this beautiful piece of art with Brighton's heartbeat on it. On the back, there is a QR code that I can scan with my phone and always be able to hear it!

Nicole, the nurse who delivered Brighton, sent Lassen a beautiful book called “The Moon is Always Round.” It is written by a dad who had a daughter born still at 39 weeks. It was written for his son and is about how the moon is always round, no matter how it looks in the sky, and that God is always good, no matter the circumstance. So, so good! I cry every time I read it and Lassen just looks at me. I will treasure this book forever. Thank you Jesus. 

Genesis 50:20
You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done, the saving of many lives.

Brighton is already making a difference for other families.