ALL MY LIFE YOU HAVE BEEN FAITHFUL

 

This beautiful ring around the sun, complete with little rainbows on each side:)

May 23, 2022
We went to church (in person) yesterday for the first time in a long time and it was good. Lassen slept the entire service which was hilarious and so sweet. We were singing the Goodness of God at the end and I started crying and couldn’t stop. Thankfully, Jerry (my father in law) had a hankie.
 

“All my life You have been faithful
And all my life you have been so, so good
With every breath that I am able
Oh I will sing, of the goodness of God.”

God has been so good and faithful even in the darkest moments. I was telling Kari about this song and crying and she said it was the song she rocked Conner to before the funeral home came to take him. God, I am so grateful to have met her, even though we haven’t yet met in person.

A girl that I had never met came up and gave me the biggest hug at church this morning, completely throwing me off guard in the best way. Someone had told her our story and she wasn’t afraid to step into my pain. Thank you Jen! I want to be bold like you!

The clouds tonight looked like footprints and I knew they were Brighton’s because they had all of his little wrinkles😊

May 25, 2022
Kyle called me today after getting a call from Love, Lucas! Eric said they had received more than $1000 in Brighton’s name, which was a substantial amount for them! Wow! God, You are so, so good to use our sweet boy to help others. I am just so proud of my boy for inspiring others to make a difference for someone else! Blown away!

A friend brought over dinner tonight which was so sweet of her. Lassen was loving the queso, until he accidently spilled the entire cup (it was a large drink cup!). So that was fun. Don’t cry over spilled milk, but I did cry over spilled queso because life has been stressful and I like queso….

The Bible app verse of the day was the story of Jesus and the little children, which was the story we read to Brighton when we saw him last. Jesus, please let Brighton know I am missing him and love him so much. I am not, and never will be perfect, but I love You Jesus and I love my boys.

May 30, 2022
One month. One month since we held our perfect son. One month since I felt his little hands around my finger. And saw his perfect bow lips. And long feet and toes. One month since a piece of my heart went to Heaven. You are making a difference, my sweet boy. We love you and miss you so much.

I spent time by myself going through Brighton’s things and focused on the fact that he was here in this world, alive, and his story will make a difference for someone. I pray that I tell his story well. Thank you God for our precious time with him.