WE ARE GUARANTEED HIS PRESENCE!

Driving around the farm

March 20, 2022
I met a friend at Panera who I used to work with. We hadn’t seen each other for a while and it was so nice to catch up. Another God wink was that she went to school with Dr. Foxlow! How wild is that?

Obviously not Panera...but can Brighton try too many tenderloins? I think not!

March 21, 2022
At first, I thought this was just a coincidence but now I truly believe God is reminding me every single day that He is in control and shows me by the time on the clock. I've written about this before but it's just so crazy. Honestly, every day, at least once if not both times, I’ll check the time and it will be 9:11. Before Brighton, the numbers 9:11 made me immediately grieve thinking of the horror that happened on September 11, 2001. Now though, whenever I see 9:11, I immediately think of Brighton, as I found out I was pregnant with him exactly 20 years later. Thank You Lord for using small things to make a big difference in my days.

I am working on this blog on 12/30/2024...to this day, I still glance at the clock at least once and it's 9:11. God cares. 

March 25, 2022
We have spent the last few days in Greencastle with Kyle’s parents finalizing our construction contract! We are officially building a home on the farm and we are so excited! It’s been such a process and we are thrilled that something big has finally happened. We found out that the people renting the front house on the farm will be moving out in April, which would give us the opportunity to move in there after we have Brighton and sell our house in Indy. It will be nice to be on the farm and have our own space. I struggle with thinking about those logistics of moving (I HATE MOVING!) because all I can focus on is Brighton’s birth.

We have a (very long!) driveway!

 I have been preparing myself in every way I can for something I know I’ll never truly be prepared for. I’ve stayed as active as I can be and tried to keep my body strong. I’ve mentally focused on being positive, while also knowing I need to recognize what the day will hold. Spiritually I’ve held tight to Jesus and His promise never to leave me or forsake me. I’m holding onto the Hope of being with my son someday, whether he is completely healed here on Earth, or if it’s when I make it to Heaven. All of my energy seems to be put into preparation.

I’ve had great heartache thinking about the birth of Brighton and how unprepared I feel, despite focusing on what I can do so much. At the same time, I have great peace knowing that Jesus will be with us every step of the way. He will not be surprised by anything and that gives me comfort. My belly seems to have gotten a lot bigger this last week and Brighton has been really active.

I listened to a Traders Point podcast about healing and Jesus being the ultimate healer. I loved this part:

“WE don’t tell God what to do but Jesus says make your requests known and trust in His sovereignty that He knows what He’s doing, even if You don’t understand. We trust that God will come through, but even if He doesn’t, we will trust. We aren’t guaranteed a miracle, but we are guaranteed His presence and that is a miracle. And the presence of Jesus heals. Keep on asking. Keep on seeking. Keep on knocking.”

Prayers for the day we meet Brighton:
1. That Jesus will be glorified and people will know Him through Brighton’s life
2. That our time with Brighton is whatever is best for him: no pain, no suffering, no fear, just love.
3. That I can physically and mentally handle labor without an epidural as I feel like this could be best for having Brighton quickly
4. That there is joy in our room amidst the sorrow
5. That we have fantastic nurses and that You protect their hearts as well
6. That Your presence is very clear and evident
7. That You hold our hearts so close and that it brings us all closer together
8. That we know and trust that You will love our boy more than we ever could and that one day we will meet him again

I will praise the One who has chosen me to carry you, my sweet Brighton!

Pops came over to visit!