HE BEARS OUR BURDENS

 

March 15, 2022
We had a playdate with an old work friend yesterday who has a son the same age as Lassen. It was a much needed time together and she prayed over me and Brighton which was really beautiful. I am fortunate to have so many friends praying for us.

Kyle finished painting a height board for Brighton and it’s a gorgeous dark green with silver letters. He made one for Lassen so of course we needed one for both boys. I cried when I saw it, but I am so glad he did that. I’m sure it was a way to connect with his son by doing something tangible.

A 90 year old lady in our town altered Brighton’s little hat for us as I was afraid it would be too big for him. She heard our story through a friend and wanted to help which was just amazing. She also knit him two smaller hats with hearts on them. I feel much better knowing I have a few options for him to wear on his birthday.

March 17, 2022
Today was such a special day and God was so present. I finally told my aunt about Brighton last night. I had delayed this news because my cousin died in a tragic car wreck last fall and I wasn’t about to add more hurt to her life. She said something that hit me in a really powerful way. God will go before us, and He will already be in the hospital room when we get there. He hems us in, behind and before. Thank You Jesus.

I had my appointment today and Lassen went with me. My blood pressure was the best it has been since November. I have a history of stressing myself out going to the doctor anyways, and then have had gestational hypertension with both pregnancies, so this made me feel really good. Brighton’s heartbeat was 145. Lassen sat beside me and listened to his brother’s perfect heartbeat. I was encouraged because Dr. Foxlow said even if he isn’t growing much, they wouldn’t electively induce before 39 weeks and she still thinks I’ll be able to go into labor on my own! I was able to talk to Susan and we had a good conversation about joy and sorrow being able to coexist. I sent her the name of Angie Smith’s book.

Two other crazy conversations happened today that are obvious God-winks in my eyes! First, we were at the park and a neighbor was there, who I have seen at our mom’s group but didn’t really know. We began talking and I ended up telling her about Brighton. She said that she had lost two babies about halfway through her pregnancies and we had a really powerful time together lamenting the pain in this world but grateful for the joy that God provides. 

On our walk back home, another neighbor commented on my belly and we ended up having the best conversation. I told her about Brighton’s story and it turns out that she was a labor and delivery nurse for years. She had experience with a baby who had acrania so it was nice to talk to someone who truly understood what was going on. She asked me who my doctor was and I told her…turns out my neighbor’s daughter is best friends with my doctor’s daughter and the two of them are friends as well! Yet another way God weaves peoples stories together. My neighbor said she had several miscarriages before she had her kids and it was something nobody talked about. I was grateful she opened up. I’ve found that by sharing my story, it gives others the courage to share theirs as well. Brighton has given me the opportunity to talk about how great my God is, no matter the circumstances, joy is possible.

sun's out, belly's out!