SEEING JESUS IN THE EVERYDAY

I think one thing I really look for is Jesus in the everyday moments. I don’t believe in coincidences; I call them “God-winks.” I am so thankful I am a journal keeper, because I was able to write about all of the times God showed up during this season, and it was so beautiful to recognize.

Susan, my nurse, who I “randomly” got scheduled with because I switched doctors, has become the greatest God-send. She had the horrible job of telling me the worst news a mother could hear, but then she gave me her email and asked me to email her at any time with questions. I was wide awake often in the middle of the night, unable to even think about sleep. Mostly, I was listening to worship music because I refused to Google anything at all related to acrania. Instead, if I had a question, I would email Susan. Even at 12:30am, she would email me back and answer all of my questions. She said she was a faithful believer and was praying for us. Thank you Jesus, for putting her in our path.

To add more stress to our lives, we were starting the process of building a house on Kyle’s family farm, about an hour from where we lived.

November 4, 2021
Our first meeting with our builders was today at the farm. We were meeting with a husband and wife team and towards the end, I felt the need to tell her that we were so glad we were able to meet with them today and have some normalcy after the news about our baby. It was yet another God moment because it turns out she was also a doula and a Christian. I had known her all of 2 hours, yet she hugged me and held me close and prayed the most powerful prayer over our baby, our hearts, and our marriage. Blown away by God’s goodness. So glad we skipped going to the maternal fetal medicine appointment today because this was a Heavenly appointment – bigger than building a house.

November 5, 2021
We have decided to find out if our baby is a boy or girl so that we can spend whatever time we have knowing exactly who our child is. I was able to get in today to have blood work for the genetic testing. God was once again very present – literally the second I walked through the door of this very busy office to check in, Susan walked around the corner, gave me a big hug, and immediately took me back to meet Taylor, who is the coordinator that is helping with scheduling my Riley appointments and all of my future OB appointments at Southside. I felt so cared for and loved by those two. Then Susan took me right to the lab, and I was back in my car within 10 minutes. Thank you Jesus for protecting my heart and putting a team of people who care around us.

It was really beautiful how God began using our story to share His love and goodness with others. I had several opportunities to talk with friends who might not necessarily have a relationship with God about where our Hope lies, to share the goodness and grace He is providing us unashamedly.

November 9, 2021
We had our appointment at Riley with the maternal fetal specialist. Our appointment went well in the fact that they did a really long ultrasound so we got to see our sweet baby playing and kicking and crossing their little legs. So, so sweet. We love this baby so much! Two doctors came in and were very kind, asking us what we had been told already, before they shared that they had nothing new or different to tell, which we were thankful about. Obviously, a complete miracle would have been great news, but we were thankful we didn’t have to absorb anything new. I was able to witness about our trust in Jesus and that we were keeping this baby alive for as long as we are able. Life is precious and we value it and will make the most of our time with our child. We made a rough plan for the next few months. Feeling sad but grateful our sweet baby is moving and doing great. So proud of this little one. Oh, I am also allowed to start running again – I am excited to share the love I have for movement with this babe too!

Psalm 23:4
“Even though I walk through the darkest valley, I will fear no evil, for You are with me; Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.”

We will go THROUGH the valley. We won’t stay there and we won’t be alone. God will be with us the entire time. Praying that Kyle and I stay in the moment and don’t get too far ahead. Jesus, thank you for walking through this dark valley with us. We love you so much. You are faithful.








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